I get nervous about weird things.
Like if I’m on stage and I’m thinking of singing a line differently than I usually sing it, I sweat it. My pulse quickens a little and I often just revert to the same-old-same-old. Or if I’m driving to a place I’ve never been before, I convince myself that I’m going to miss a turn and I’ll miss the whole event. Or the fact that the guy who’s going to be my boss next year is visiting campus on Tuesday and Wednesday and I’m alarmingly nervous about it, even though he’s a really nice guy and isn’t my boss yet, so he doesn’t know how irresponsible and inept I am yet, ha ha. (Kidding. Actually, I like to think I’m pretty good at what I do, all things considered.)
It’s just weird…I get nervous about nothing…and it’s always peripheral issues… Like I get scared of singing the LINE differently, but not of performing. I get scared of getting lost, but I don’t worry about if the event I’m is going to be terrible—or just some kind of intervention. I get worried about my NEXT boss visiting, but I don’t really worry much about my present bosses. (I mean that in a good way. If I were worried about my present bosses, then there’d be something wrong, because I’d HAVE something to worry about. I have a healthy respect for them, but no fear or worry. In fact they’ve all been really supportive and kind, even when I’ve made mistakes…and I promise, I’m not sucking up. You who read here know me well enough to know that I don’t do that.)
I don’t know why I’m sharing this with all of you…just kind of been thinking about it lately. And I’m tired and a little spacey…so that makes for weird blog posts, and I don’t have enough sense to just save it and read it in the morning, lol. 🙂
That’s all for now. I’m going to try to get to bed a little earlier than I normally do (but I’m posting this at 12:26 a.m. So it’s kind of a relative term). Hopefully this week will see some more frequent posting from me. Don’t know why I’ve been letting my daily blogging slide lately. I’ll do better sooner or later.
- Mostly the Drive-By Truckers…the re-scheduled show from last month is this upcoming Saturday. Should be a good one, now that Patterson’s healthy again!