Health

I’m taking a five-minute break at work to talk about how bad I feel on my blog.

 

My back’s been killing me since last week (St. Pat’s, to be exact).  In addition to that, I now have a sore throat and a headache.  The sore throat could be related to having done some power-sanding over the weekend and getting engulfed in the dust that was created as a result.  Or it could be that I’m getting a cold.  Or it could be that my allergies are going nuts with the rapidly changing weather…  The headache…well there are to many “or-s” to get into it.

 

This is not how I need to feel with my boss for next year on campus today and tomorrow (which got moved up from tomorrow and Wednesday).  As I said previously, he’s a nice guy, so I’m sure he’ll understand if I’m not at my most chipper, after some brief apologies…but I’d much rather be feeling at least 80% decent (which these days is about equal to being 100% for me).

 

So I’m stressed out, exhausted, and I feel like a truck hit me.  This is going to be a long week, I think.  I shouldn’t be that worried about it.  My job’s one of the few things I normally feel like I’ve got a handle on.  It’s just a transition-time, and that’s always wearing.  It’ll be good though, in the end…I just hope I start feeling a little better so I can be somewhat functional in the meetings I’m sure I’ll be having this week.  It’s not actually the work-stuff I’m sweating.  It’s the not-feeling-good stuff I’m sweating…that just happens to be going on WHILE I’ve got unusual work-stuff, too…

 

But I just need to keep my head above water, I guess.  It’ll work out…It’ll work out…It’ll work out…

 

Just six hours or so until I can go home and take a nap.  🙂

 

I hope I’m coming across clearly as saying I really do like my job…I just don’t feel good today and that’s making work difficult.  I’m not really even focusing very well…which is why I’m jumping from editing work-documents to typing a blog post to reading the headlines to checking out books to cleaning my office to getting back to the document I’m editing to thinking about lunch to trying to remember when I took that last Advil…etc.  Fortunately, no one seems to notice much of a difference, ha ha.

 

…annnnnd…that’s five minutes.  We’ll spell-check and it’ll be six.  Oops…

 

UPDATE: Feeling a little better.  Had one meeting with next-year’s boss and it went well.  I think I’m really going to like working with him.  And Sudafed’s awesome, by the way. 

Just a small thing about me…

I get nervous about weird things.

 

Like if I’m on stage and I’m thinking of singing a line differently than I usually sing it, I sweat it.  My pulse quickens a little and I often just revert to the same-old-same-old.  Or if I’m driving to a place I’ve never been before, I convince myself that I’m going to miss a turn and I’ll miss the whole event.  Or the fact that the guy who’s going to be my boss next year is visiting campus on Tuesday and Wednesday and I’m alarmingly nervous about it, even though he’s a really nice guy and isn’t my boss yet, so he doesn’t know how irresponsible and inept I am yet, ha ha.  (Kidding.  Actually, I like to think I’m pretty good at what I do, all things considered.)

 

It’s just weird…I get nervous about nothing…and it’s always peripheral issues…  Like I get scared of singing the LINE differently, but not of performing.  I get scared of getting lost, but I don’t worry about if the event I’m is going to be terrible—or just some kind of intervention.  I get worried about my NEXT boss visiting, but I don’t really worry much about my present bosses.  (I mean that in a good way.  If I were worried about my present bosses, then there’d be something wrong, because I’d HAVE something to worry about.  I have a healthy respect for them, but no fear or worry.  In fact they’ve all been really supportive and kind, even when I’ve made mistakes…and I promise, I’m not sucking up.  You who read here know me well enough to know that I don’t do that.)

 

I don’t know why I’m sharing this with all of you…just kind of been thinking about it lately.  And I’m tired and a little spacey…so that makes for weird blog posts, and I don’t have enough sense to just save it and read it in the morning, lol.  🙂

 

That’s all for now.  I’m going to try to get to bed a little earlier than I normally do (but I’m posting this at 12:26 a.m.  So it’s kind of a relative term).  Hopefully this week will see some more frequent posting from me.  Don’t know why I’ve been letting my daily blogging slide lately.  I’ll do better sooner or later.

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Current Listening:

  • Mostly the Drive-By Truckers…the re-scheduled show from last month is this upcoming Saturday.  Should be a good one, now that Patterson’s healthy again!